What a task this turned out to be. To give my control over to something that I could not see, feel or touch seemed truly impossible. I felt I needed something tangible. I always believed, but never understood the difference between inner and outer reality. I think it actually took three years to actually grasp (in my terms) the concept of what step three meant (to me).
Making a decision was just that, “making a decision”. Until I became willing to take a fearless and thorough look at myself nothing changed. The process of step three has gradually become more clear; but don’t get me wrong it is still very blurry at times.
Step three tells me to get out of the driver seat and let God take the wheel, to do whatever is in front of me and leave the results up to God and most importantly, that I do not have to fix, carry or resolve the world’s problems. All I have to do is become the clay so God can mold me into what He needs me to be.
Acceptance of and surrender to this principle allows me harmony between my intentions and my actions.