As I was sitting in the County Jail, my character defects (as I now refer to them), were being intensely fueled with the chaos around me. Actually, I attended my first Alcoholic Anonymous meeting while acting on a deep rooted character defect. No matter how I got there, I did. I will be forever indebted to those two wonderful women who brought the word of AA and their experience, strength and hope to that County Jail; thus, showing me a way of life I never imagined possible. The kind, compassionate words shared in those meetings started my journey on this path. It was one of those women who had given me, a total stranger, their phone number and told me to call her when I got out. I did, she became my first sponsor and the trudging began. Like some, it took me awhile to surrender, but without those two women I would never have wanted something different for my life. As I look back, the amount of tolerance shown to me as I “controlled” the meetings with my blubbering and fear was enormous; thank God for those AA’s. I am thoroughly convinced that the first impression of these people was a foundation for my recovery.
As my path has taken its course I have been blessed with the friends and family at Tallgrass. I have lived in both Sober Homes which played a major role in my recovery. The experience showed me that my recovery is an ongoing process and accountability to others is a significant aspect of “doing the deal”. Today, drinking is not an option for me. Thank you, AA and Tallgrass, for your acceptance of me for who I am and not judging me for what I have done.
My path has been filled with many curves and mountains, but I am confident in knowing that these obstacles will not affect the beauty of this program and its members.
“We will know a new freedom and a new happiness.” BB pg. 83.